It has not been a good week.  Although I did have a blast on Saturday night at a bachelorette party.

Things have gone downhill ever since I found out my grandma passed away. It was made worse by the amount of guilt I started feeling because I didn’t visit her as often as I should have. I have heard multiple times that I shouldn’t feel so bad since she was so out of it at the end. But it didn’t stop me from diving into a huge guilt spiral. And starting on Halloween way too much of this has been happening.

Indulging a bit every now and then is perfectly fine. but I haven’t been indulging. I have been overindulging. And it has to stop. I need to be eating a lot less of this.

And a lot more of this:

And this:

And I totally want this again:

I don’t understand emotional eating at all. Why is it when I feel guilty or angry or sad or whatever sort of emotion, I just want to hide behind food? Why is maintaining my weight harder to do than losing it?

1. Because I’m not perfect?

2. Because food tastes amazing?

Possibly. But it never actually makes me feel good. So why overindulge? Well, if you were looking for an actual answer, I’m sorry but I don’t have one. All I know is tomorrow is a brand new day for me to make healthier choices to treat my body right.

Do you have the answers to combat emotional eating?

I sure don’t, but I’m an expert at justifying “just one more piece.” Does that count?